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The Crisis Point of Faith |
by David A. DePra |
Have you ever reached a point in your walk with Christ where |
you knew God wanted you to surrender to Him -- but you were |
given no assurance of exactly what was going to happen IF you |
surrendered? Have you ever faced absolute darkness, yet knew |
God wanted you to walk straight into it, trusting Him? |
This is a call for faith. It is a call to abandon myself to God. |
By faith I must die to the right to have the final say so in my life. |
By faith, I obey God -- internally and externally -- and am |
willing to leave the results of my surrender to Him. |
Many Christian teachers of the past have expressed it well: A |
walk by faith is a walk in absolute darkness, yet absolute |
confidence. It is a walk in which I cannot see God, but believe |
God sees me. It is a life of not knowing where I am going, but a |
life of trust in the One who is leading. All the saints of the Bible |
went through it. And if we wish to get far with Christ, we'll have to |
go through it too. |
Building Up to a Crisis |
Everyday we make choices before the Lord. We make them |
over little things and over big things. We make choices to |
believe and obey, or to not believe and therefore disobey. But as |
important as these daily choices are, many of them are merely |
preliminary. They are part of a "build up" to something else. |
They are UNTO a point we might term a "crisis point" in the walk |
of faith. |
A "crisis point" in the Christian walk occurs when God brings |
me face to face with a fundamental choice of life. It is a point |
where all of the clutter has been cleared away and the issue is |
clear: I must choose either God, or choose myself. I must |
choose to believe God, or fall back to something less. |
These "crisis points" are often quite terrifying and difficult. By |
definition they have to be. When I face one of them, there is a |
definite sense that I am going to lose control of my life if I |
surrender to God. There is no assurance as to what God will |
allow if I do surrender. Yet there is a divine conviction that I |
MUST surrender. I must believe and obey. I know too much to |
turn back. |
Abraham |
One of the best examples of such a "crisis point" in the Bible is |
given to us in the book of Hebrews: |
By faith, Abraham, when he was called to go out into a |
place which he should after receive an inheritance, obeyed, |
and he went out, not knowing whither he went. (Heb. 11:8) |
Notice what God was asking Abraham to do: Abandon his |
earthly inheritance. In those days and in that culture, what you |
inherited from your father in the way of lands and property was |
everything. And there is every reason to believe that Abraham |
was extremely rich in the land of his father. Therefore, when God |
called him OUT of that land, Abraham was cutting off every link |
he had to an earthly inheritance. He was left with nothing in |
which he could trust. He was walking into absolute darkness, |
but doing it in absolute assurance of faith. |
We see this in the above scripture. Abraham "went out, not |
knowing wither he went." In other words, God said to come out, |
and Abraham obeyed by faith. But he came out not knowing |
where he was going, or where he would end up. He left that to |
God. |
Here again, we see the essence of the life of faith: I cannot |
see where I am going, but I trust the One who is leading. |
Believing God cost Abraham every earthly thing he owned. |
But his faith cost him even more than that. It actually cost him |
control of his life. When he dwelt in Ur, he had citizenship rights. |
He had wealth and influence. He had a guaranteed inheritance. |
But in obeying God, Abraham was stripped of all of those things. |
He no longer possessed any power to determine the outcome of |
his life. |
This point is shown in the next verses of Hebrews: |
By faith he sojourned in the land of promise, as in a |
strange country, dwelling in tabernacles...for he looked |
for a city which has foundations, whose builder and maker |
is God." (Heb. 11:9-10) |
Imagine yourself picking up and moving to a foreign country. |
You have no right to work, to attend church, or to own property. |
All of that, and more, is out of your hands. It is going to be |
decided by another. Pretty scary. Yet that's what Abraham did |
by faith. |
God calls us to such a "land." He bids us to come out, "not |
knowing wither" we are going. He wants us to do what Abraham |
did: Relinquish the right to determine the outcome of our lives. |
Refuse to reserve for ourselves the right to have the final say. He |
says, "I'm not going to tell you what is going to happen if you |
abandon yourself to Me. But I am asking you to do it anyways." |
God wants us to abandon to Him in the overall sense. But He |
also wants us to abandon to Him in the specific sense. Thus, |
God will build us up to certain points of crisis where we will have |
to clearly and knowingly choose along this line. Yet if we do |
choose to believe God and abandon ourselves to Him, we will be |
given NO assurances of what will happen to us. We will know |
only to WHOM we are surrendering. |
If I've ever prayed "Thy will be done;" if I've ever asked God to |
make me become His will, then here is my part in the equation: I |
must unconditionally surrender myself to God for His will. Then |
God will have His way with me -- even though I may not know |
specifically what "that way" is. Whatever it is in my case, |
however, will result in my "afterwards receiving an inheritance." It |
will be one which eternally surpasses that which I could have |
achieved by clinging onto this earthly citizenship. |
Citizenship |
The Bible speaks of being a citizen of heaven. But what does |
this really mean? |
We find the answer by first understanding what it means to be |
a citizen of this world. A citizen of this world has inherited all the |
citizenship rights which Adam took upon himself when he |
declared his independence from God. Thus, if I am a citizen of |
this age, I have the right to possess my own life. I have the right |
to decide; the right to bring my own will to pass. These rights are |
inherent in the Adamic creation. They come with being born in |
this "country;" this realm of the flesh. |
Being a citizen of heaven, however, means that I must do as |
Abraham did: I come out of this world. I forsake, by faith, the |
citizenship rights which I inherit through Adam. |
This entails a tremendous cost. Coming out of this world and |
entering into citizenship of the kingdom of God occurs only |
through one method: Death. I must lose my life in order to find |
it. I forfeit it all into the hands of God. And I do all of this "not |
"knowing whither I am going." I know only to WHOM I am |
abandoning myself. I leave the outcome of my life, and the |
means of that outcome, to HIM. |
That's the negative part of surrender -- negative, at least, to |
the flesh. There is great loss. But then there's the infinitely |
greater positive aspect: What I gain by becoming a citizen of the |
kingdom of God. I gain all the riches of Jesus Christ. And I gain |
the tremendous freedom of no longer having the right to decide |
for myself! |
Do you see what this means? It means that the basic |
characteristic of being a citizen of heaven is that I have NO |
citizenship rights! All of my rights, and all of my will, is given into |
the hands of God. |
As incredible as it may seem, God never made man as a |
creature who could live independently of Him. He made man as |
a creature who could function properly only if he was |
surrendered to his Creator. Thus, becoming a citizen of the |
kingdom of God is really a homecoming. It is a return to the |
original intention and design God intended for man. |
Becoming a citizen of heaven, rather than earth, is a |
one-time event. We are birthed into a new realm, with a new |
citizenship, in Jesus Christ. But it takes a lifetime to learn how to |
live as a citizen of the kingdom of God. We are all so used to |
living as a citizen of this world, governing our own lives, and |
allowing this and that to govern US, that we naturally try to carry |
that pattern over into the kingdom of God. That's why God must |
again and again bring us to these "crisis points." He is giving us |
the opportunity to break free of these residual habits of the flesh, |
and to begin living as the citizen of heaven that we are. |
A Case in Point |
There are many episodes in the Bible which illustrate these |
"crisis points" of faith which God brings us to face. One of the |
best illustrations involves David. There were many events in the |
life of David which show him to be a man after God's own heart |
-- despite all of his mistakes and sins. One instance which |
stands out is David's ordeal at Ziklag. David's experience at |
Ziklag was a "crisis point" in his relationship with God, and of |
extreme value as a lesson to us. |
David had become a refugee in his own land -- a refugee |
from king Saul himself. Two other facts complicated David's life. |
First, king Saul knew that his kingdom was to be taken from him. |
Second, David knew that he was going to be the one to take it. |
This knowledge was a constant temptation to David. He had |
to wait for God to remove Saul, instead of trying to take matters |
into his own hands. In the meantime, David's life was in danger |
every moment from his own king -- a king he knew he was |
destined to replace. |
David finally had to flee Israel and seek refuge in the land of |
the enemy. David joined himself to Achish, king of the |
Phillistines. In reality, of course, David was only pretending to |
join Achish. He convinced Achish he had forsaken Israel so that |
he could dwell safely in this new land. He "verified" his loyalty to |
Achish by raiding other enemy nations and sharing the booty |
with him. |
The difficulties under which David and his men lived must |
have been intense. He had been forced out of his own land by |
Saul. Now he had to carve a nitche in the land of the enemy to |
survive. A continual fear and present danger must have faced |
David and his men continually on all sides. They were true |
sojourners, but worse yet, fugitives who had to battle for every |
meal. |
It was in this atmosphere of testing and desperate need that |
Achish gave the city of Ziklag to David. The possession of such |
a city of refuge must have been a present comfort to David. No, |
it was not Israel, and David was still considered a criminal. But it |
was at least something -- a place of hope. Ziklag represented |
to David his "last resort." It was his only place of retreat away |
from Saul and away from hopelessness. It was the only visible |
evidence David possessed that God was protecting him. |
The "Crisis Point" for David |
David's troubles went from bad to worse when he discovered |
that Achish was expecting him to go to war with him against |
Israel. How could David get out of this one? Fortunately, |
Achish's men did not trust David. They convinced Achish to |
forbid David to fight with them. This must have been a |
tremendous relief for David. He could never have fought against |
his own people. But it must have made him wonder: Once this |
fighting was over would Achish also distrust him? And what of |
Ziklag? Would Achish take it away from him? |
That question would quickly prove to be moot. David left |
Achish, relieved that he would not have to face the issue of |
fighting against his own people. He arrived at Ziklag only three |
days later. But upon arriving, he and his men discovered that the |
Amalekites had invaded the city, completely destroyed it, and |
carried off their wives, children, and possessions. David had |
nothing left of his life -- not his family; not even his only place |
of refuge. And to make matters worse even his loyal men spoke |
of stoning him -- blaming him for what had happened. |
Ziklag marks the absolute low point of David's trial. He had |
already lost his home and his nation; his reputation and his |
inheritance. He had become a fugitive. But now he had lost his |
wives and his children, and the loyalty and friendship of his own |
men. And to top it all off, David had now lost the one visible |
piece of evidence that God was with him: Ziklag. That too was |
destroyed. |
A Test of Faith |
David was a man of prayer. The Psalms show that. He had |
been praying for help all during his time of refuge and trial. He |
prayed when he fled Saul. He prayed and thanked God when |
Achish gave him Ziklag. David believed and staked his life on the |
fact that God would be faithful to him. But now THIS. How could |
such a thing happen to one who had trusted God? Where was |
God? |
David's experience at Ziklag was one that broke new ground |
in his walk with God. There had likely always been SOME |
evidence God was with him. The evidence, however, was now |
gone. David was being called to a walk without evidence -- a |
walk where the only evidence of things not seen is faith itself. |
(see Heb. 11:1) |
It is not too hard to imagine some of the questions which must |
have run through David's mind in the aftershock of the Ziklag |
disaster: Was all of David's faith and belief that God was with him |
a fallacy? Maybe David just convinced himself God was with |
him. Maybe all of the other times David thought God delivered |
him were just false impressions. How could God possibly hear |
all of David's prayers for deliverance, only to answer them by |
allowing something worse to happen? These questions, and |
more, usually come to us when we discover our Ziklag is |
destroyed. We pray for deliverance and God seems to give us a |
worsened trial. We pray to possess something and God takes it |
away. Or to be free of something, and God binds us tighter with |
it. Are things supposed to get worse through prayer rather than |
better? |
Faith is an element of our Christian walk which must be |
tested. It is of no consequence otherwise. And in order for faith |
to be tested, there must come contradiction -- contradiction |
between what we believe -- that God is unconditionally faithful |
-- and what our natural perceptions and reactions tell us -- |
that God's faithfulness is conditional. Faith must have something |
against which to stand; something to overcome; something to |
resist. The destruction of a Ziklag is such a test of faith. |
God is never after our circumstances. He is after US. |
Whether our circumstances get better or worse has to do with |
how God is using them as vehicles to get us. He wants us to |
take the plunge into the darkness of surrender. He wants us to |
take the leap of faith. If we do, our circumstances may not |
change -- at least not for a while. But WE will change. And |
afterall, that's what God is after. |
The Turn of the Trial |
As David stood gazing in disbelief at the ruins of Ziklag he |
could not have known that in less than a week Saul would be |
dead and that the kingdom would be as good as his own. |
Presently, all was lost. David was at a "crisis point." |
Notice something here. David still had an army. He could |
have gone ahead and sought to win back his family and |
possessions. He could have taken matters into his own hands. |
But no. Instead, "David encouraged himself in the Lord." In other |
words, He abandoned himself to God. He surrendered the entire |
situation, and his rights to redemption, into the hands of the |
Living God. |
David had no way of knowing what God would do. Afterall, |
God had already allowed great tragedy in his life. He had |
allowed his family to be taken captive. Perhaps surrendering to |
God would only insure that David would never see them again. It |
would have been easy, and naturally understandable, had David |
allowed his fears and inclinations to govern him. He could have |
set his face towards rescuing his loved ones through his own |
efforts. |
But no. David sought God. And in his seeking, he found |
"encouragement." And he found it BEFORE he knew the |
outcome of this ordeal. How? Because David knew a great |
Truth: If a person abandons to God, nothing can get through to |
them unless it gets through God first. And in that there is great |
encouragement, even if what God allows is apparent tragedy or |
distress. |
I need to see this and wrap myself in it: If I trust God and |
abandon myself to Him -- and the emphasis is on "if" here -- |
then there is NOTHING which can get into my life unless it FIRST |
gets throughs God. Nothing. In a nutshell, that means if I |
abandon my will to God, He guarantees that He shall bring HIS |
will to pass in my life. Not sometimes, but everytime. |
Deliverance |
Things moved quickly from the point of David's surrender. |
David inquired of the Lord as to what to do. He did not demand |
the return of his wives and possessions despite all the pressure |
from his men. He was fully yielded to God on this matter. He |
would pursue or not pursue. It was up to God. Of course God |
said to pursue. They chanced upon an Egyptian slave of one of |
the Amalekites who had raided Ziklag. Not only did this slave |
provide them with food, but he also led them to their stolen |
possessions. |
Isn't that remarkable? A servant of one of the very men who |
had caused David's trial was now serving David. The lesson |
could not be more clear. If we trust God against all that seeks to |
contradict Him, He'll make that which served our adversary begin |
to serve us. He'll use the things which caused us such pain as |
instruments which will actually feed and strengthen us. |
Now David and his men were ready to take back what had |
been lost. Indeed, of all who had been taken in the terrible raid, |
not one person who had been taken from Ziklag had been |
harmed. God had seen to it. In but a short time David and his |
men were going back to Israel, families in tact. David was to be |
king. |
Life From Death |
Herein we see the fundamental principle of Christianity |
illustrated: The principle of life through death. It is only through |
death that we find life. Or, as Jesus said, it is only by losing our |
lives that we shall find them. |
In the 15th chapter of I Corinthians, Paul asks a question |
which infers this great Truth: |
But some man will say, "How are the dead raised up? And |
with what body do they come?" Thou fool. That which you |
sow is not quickened, except it die. And that which you |
sow , you sow not that body that shall be, but bare grain, |
it may be of wheat or of some other grain. But God gives |
it a body as it has pleased Him, and to every seed his own |
body. (I Cor. 15:35-38) |
Paul is here illustrating the principle of abandonment. He tells |
us that it is a foolish question to ask what will become of the seed |
we sow -- or abandon -- to God. We cannot know what will |
be the fruit of our surrender; of our death. No. God cannot tell |
us. Yet GOD will give it the body -- or form -- that pleases |
HIM. |
God is telling us to cast forth our lives as a sower would sow a |
seed. We are to cast them from ourselves and let them go down |
into a death. As we do our sowing or casting, we cannot know |
what will be the consequences of our surrender. We leave that to |
God. HE will give what we have surrendered a "body." He will |
take our lives and resurrect them in a form which pleases Him. |
That is what God is bringing us to do in the many points of |
crisis in our Christian walk. He wants us to sow, not our money, |
nor our possessions, but OURSELVES. He wants us to cast forth |
our right to govern ourselves in this age. |
On the Cross, Jesus said it best. He said, "Into Your hands I |
commit my spirit." Jesus had no power to resurrect Himself from |
the death to which He was surrendering. But then, Jesus wasn't |
really surrendering to death. He wasn't really surrendering to His |
circumstances. He was surrendering to God. He utterly and |
unconditionally abandoned Himself to God. And God raised Him |
up to newness of life. |
If I believe God and surrender to Him despite the darkness, I |
may not know what the specific outcome will be in my |
circumstances. But I can trust that it is sufficient that God knows. |
And I can be sure that through my surrender I will acquire an |
ETERNAL inheritance in Jesus Christ as a citizen of the kingdom |
of God. |